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~Shreya's POV~
Rathore Mansion
It's okay Shreya, breathe. It's all fine. No worries. Just breathe.
I sat on the swing in the balcony. It felt like my head was moving round and round so I got up and sat on the ground near the plants resting my back on the wall.
It feels better like this. Yeah. sighs
I saw him today.
Damn. Though the meet was more chaotic than emotional but the minor bits of eye contacts and intimacy are taking over my head right now. It seems like my heart will come out of my body beating at such speed.
But, why the hell am I forgetting what he did to me?
And what was that Shreya? Why did I keep my hand to protect his head? I should have let him get hurt. No, actually. Urghhhh!!!
This is weird. Completely weird. I hate him but I don't want him to get hurt.
Somebody hit my head with a hammer please. I am going all insane.
But, he also didn't look normal. I mean the way he should have been after what happened between us.
When my eyes met his, it seemed as if he was devouring into my soul. His softened gaze felt calm and composed. He even stopped breathing and was sweating so much. Was he this much affected by my presence? It felt like we went two years back and again fell for each other in that moment.
Shreya, you are just being delusional. Stop your fantasies. He doesn't love you.
It's you, not him, whose love is spread all over. It was, is and will forever be you. He will never love you back. It's better if you accept it and move on.
But, it hurts. It really hurts.
I remember when we were sitting in the backyard and the confession thing came up, just after he went away from there, Anya said we don't have 'no' as even an option for the proposal.
But, she was wrong.
It was just me who never had 'no' as an option but him, he never had 'yes' as an option.
I wonder if what he showed from the beginning was even real.
Him looking at me with those brown orbs or him holding my hand or him talking to me endlessly or him adoring me or him caging me in his arms or him teasing me with that nickname, was it all baseless?
It never felt like, not even after his rejection.
I don't know why but I just can't believe that everything was just a play or something done for the sake of enjoyment. I am not an emotional fool to not understand the connection formed between us in those days.
Was he faking it when he said he doesn't want me to go away from him or when he said he doesn't love me?
Eyes don't lie and his screamed love today.
God, why are you making it difficult for me? I want to hate him. In this manner, the way I am thinking all this, I would never be able to do that.
~Vedant's POV~
Kirti Mansion
Stop thinking about her. It is becoming worse. No, this is worst. What worse could happen?
But no, whenever I say that no worse could happen. looks at the sky standing on the terrace you take it as a challenge and throw even worse conditions at me.
Damn, I am just unable to forget the feel of her being close to me. I wish I could tell her what is going on inside me from the moment I saw her.
Wait, the moment I saw her.
She was carrying that child which I thought was hers. But, then Maheer was asking me to reconsider my decision again and again. This means that-
What the-
I called Maheer.
"Bhai sun na ek minute"
"Pagal ho gaya hai?"
Yes, it feels like.
"Chup"
(Bro listen one minute)
(Have you gone mad?)
(Shut up)
"Abey bakega kuch? Raat ke teen baje teri saanson ki aahat sunane ke liye toh call nahi kiya hoga tune"
(Will you speak something? You must have not called at 3am in the night to make me hear the sounds of your breathe)
"Shut up Maheer. I just wanted to ask about."
"About" he screamed in excitement. What happened man?
"About" damn, how do I name her in front of him? He will again grab hold of me saying I still love her. I should reconcile with her. Blah blah blah.
"About Shreya?" he asked in extreme eagerness.
"Haan" I uttered without a second's gap and regretted immediately.
(Yes)
"Nice" I heard him saying. Saamne hota toh iska sir phod deta
(I would have thrashed his head if he was in front of me)
Meri jaan jaa rahi hai isse mazak se fursat nahi
(My life is on stake and he is busy in joking)
{ Try it with your own head } my inner conscience mocked me. Well, dear, if I do it with my head, you will be the first one getting thrashed. So just shut up.
"What about her? Aage toh bol" Maheer said in the same eager tone.
(Speak further)
"Her- her ch- her child" I finally spoke only to hear him shouting
"What? She has a child?"
sighs Fine, it was all misunderstanding. But, why the hell am I sighing?
"Have you gone mad? What are you even asking?"
"Actually that day, I saw her with a child and thought"
"Abey o bedimaag insaan......Before reacting in such extreme manner, you should have at least thought for a while or you could have asked me." Wow.
(Oh brainless human)
I lost all my senses the moment I observed the scene and he is asking me to have thought and verified the fact. Awesome.
My body wasn't in my control, my vocal cord choked and none of my nerves were functioning according to my command and I should have freaking verified what I thought. Great.
"Vedant" he called taking me out of my thoughts, actually one of the worst memories. I feel shiver running through my body whenever I remember that moment.
It was as if something is killing me from inside. Someone is caging me from all sides and every corner seemed to come closer to me.
I tried to stop the continuous stream of tears but I could not. I didn't want to cry but I was helpless.
This is what a panic attack does.
All of a sudden, a lot of emotions jump on you.
It is not that I never felt most of those emotions before, I did.
I did feel disgraceful at the thought that one day, she will be someone else's. She won't be with me forever. Our world won't be same ever again.
But, I never expressed them to anyone.
And at that very moment, it was not just the scene in front of me that caused the pain.
Those were all the emotions that were suppressed somewhere inside my heart which attacked me altogether and caused whatever happened.
The breathlessness, the disability to control myself, the blurring of vision, the urge to hurt myself to replace the pain inside my heart with a physical wound.
Everything. Every damn thing happened as a result of those emotions.
"Hello" he said as I again got lost in my thoughts.
"I'll call you later bye" I ended the call as I know what the further conversation will be. He will just try to convince me that I should talk to her and clear things out, blah and blah.
Okay so all that was a misunderstanding. Fine.
But still, man. What if all that was a misunderstanding and hell? The main reason still does not change. So, just let it be.
~Shreya's POV~
The next day
Damn, it's too late. I should rush. I had to reach hospital by 8am but due to Aru's school project, I left home half an hour later than usual.
ring
"Shreya"
"Hn yaar sorry aaj late ho gaya thoda"
(Yeah sorry dear, I am a bit late today)
"Arey leave it. There's a news"
"What news?" I kept the phone aside putting it on speaker because the tea seems to be long.
"So basically Maheer came to my home. Okay" I hummed. This I know. The result is to be known. I don't know if I studied right but her voice seems tensed.
"Myra what ahead?" I asked keeping my half focus on the road and half on the call, trying to balance out the rush.
"So uske parents ne...."
(So his parents....)
"Mana kar diya?"
(denied?)
"Pagal hai?"
(Are you mad?)
"Haan ab aage bol"
(Yes now speak further)
"Itna such bolne ke kitne paise mile"
(How much amount did you get to speak this much truth?)
"Aage bolegi?"
(Will you speak ahead?)
"Haan bola uske parents ne"
(His parents agreed)
"Tu pagal hai.......who tells such things in this tone? At least show some excitement"
(You are mad)
"Excitement nahi urgency.......next month ki date hai"
(Urgency, not excitement. The date is of next month)
"Wow......extra excitement" I said in a teasing tone looking at the phone. Wait, road. Oh no!!!!
"Aaaaaaaaaaaa"
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